This is of course a little tongue in cheek. But I can’t even move. I kind of loved the cross fit. For the One hour class, I was just focused on not collapsing (hmm much like everyday) and getting my body to work and keeping up with everyone. But it felt like a positive rather than a negative. My jaw hit the floor when I was watching the weights these women lift. Olympic lifters with banging healthy looking bodies. I hope to get there. I’m going to sign up for this. So is my Husband. We are going to switch off days, although maybe on Saturday, my mom will watch the kids and we can go together and cheer each other on. You have to google this crazy cross-fit to even understand what I’m talking about.
I’m excited about it. Strong is the new skinny.
I don’t know how it will fit into my possible pregnancy plans. I hear a lot of women talk about gaining weight ahead of time so that when they lose it they don’t turn skeletal. I think I will actually be gaining weight with cross fit. Muscle weight. I am 5’4 and 128 pounds right now. (I can’t believe I just made that public). I am not at my ideal weight and things are not tight like they use to be when I was 120 in college, but I chalked that up to having two babies and getting older. With this last pregnancy I started at 132 and ended at 124 from the three weeks of vomiting. So, I’m just not sure if I should pack on fat or muscle in anticipation of losing it while pregnant. It seems counter intuitive to pack on fat, not sure how that can be healthy, but I guess bears do it for winter. What are your all’s thoughts? What has worked for others in the past? (I should mention that I’m a crazy health nut, with unconvential ideas. I eat mostly paleo, mostly organic. No grains, alcohol, dairy, sugar, processed etc.- I cheat sometimes- but mostly I am good- because my homeopathic Dr thinks it will help avoid an HG pregnancy in the future- although I am not hopeful at all, as my theory for me is that its like an allergic reactionto my DH’s swimmers )
On the helpher boards I came across a women who wrote an amazing article (not yet published) regarding body image and pregnancy and HG. It was a really wonderful read. I am going to try and find her and see if she wants to share it here. It talked about the perception and even envy regarding staying skinny during pregnancy. How women will enviously tell other HGers how they dont’ even look pregnant, as use that as the silver lining. It is not healthy to loose weight while pregnant. It is healthy to gain it. It is what all should be shooting for and sadly it isn’t. You only need to go to people.com this week to see the obsession with weight and pregnancy: “Amanda Kerr walks Catwalk 2 Months after Giving Birth.” I saw myself fall into the trap a little. With this last pregnancy as my weight was whittling down, I was admiring my skinny figure in the mirror. I remember thinking perhaps its the silver lining.
So while this article is mostly about my quest to find something to focus my energy on in a positive way, I think there is a take away message regarding fitness, pregnancy, weight and HG. I don’t know what it is though. That requires heavier lifting than I am trained for. Maybe one of my readers can figure it out.
Anyway for now I love cross fit and I dont’ have immediate plans to get pregnant (I’m going a 6 month plan. Did I say this already? I’m going to organize my life as if I’m prepping to TTC and give that 6 months to do, and thereafter I will assess and try to determine what it is I really want next as far as our family. That will be 1 year from the date I found out I was expecting our third.
So I am going to do the cross fit. I am going to have to figure out how to pay for it, especially when I’m trying like crazy to already pay my student loans, and save for adoption/future pregnancy/house etc.
But hey I’m saving money on not going to counseling anymore and its a lot cheaper than that?
on Another random note, Knocked UP has a great list of how much prepping for HG has cost her. I feel like I should keep a list of how much HG is costing me too. Because even though I’m not in the middle of an HG pregnancy and there aren’t too many associated medical costs, the costs of recovering from this trauma is becoming astronomical as well. ie the gym membership, counseling, retail therapy, follow-up medical appointments, accupuncture, homeopathic counseling, crazy erratic spending behavior (In my defense it was a week after the procedure and I returned almost everything and I mostly bought clothes for husband and kids) Anyway all of this effort to make myself feel whole again is not covered by insurance of course, but damn it should be.