Well he is back to no. “its not the right time” which sadly is what he always says. So my thought is that there will never really be a “right” time.
I feel like I am loosing another baby, and that doesn’t feel fair! I wanted this so badly, I felt it was meant to be on some level, because of how easy it was and how it fell into my lap. I have been dreaming of this baby and praying for him. I can see myself holding him and kissing him. And I named him and I love him. I felt he was mine and I was his. My husband doesn’t feel that way, and I don’t know how to change that, and I feel very hopeless about the whole thing.
And the tears are really flowing today, because I can’t keep everyone on hold anymore, so I have to let them know that it isn’t going to happen. If you get a chance just send prayers or positive thoughts my way.